This Discrepant Writer
Yesterday I started a blog post that was a little on the bitter side. Quick version: Bad job = poor wages = self-imposed restrictions = bored. After writing it, I thought on it for a while and decided to wait on publishing it. That was a good decision, I think. I don’t want to put that out into the world, and I know you don’t want to read it. As creatives, we have to keep hope alive, against insurmountable odds, and often times without the support of those who truly understand what our lives are like. When I was still living in Los Angeles, I had my writer’s group, but since moving back to Las Vegas, I have lost my writer friends, those who “know”. I miss them.
Work has got me down, and unfortunately, that’s affecting my creative life, which is usually where I escape. I’ve been skirting the start of the pilot, but I don’t know why. I have pages upon pages of notes and ideas, and now they just need to be organized and fluffed, but I’ve lost steam. Hence, the proverbial kick.
I read this quote today, something about people who are optimistic all the time are delusional. It made me giggle, because although I try to be as optimistic as I can, especially in this space, as writers we are constantly afflicted with a variety of emotional states and the stress of the balancing act of our multiple lives, so it’s okay to not be happy and perky all the time.
I know this attitude shift is mostly because I’m looking for a new job, again. There is also a teensy bit of regret that I have so few skills other than food and beverage service. I feel as if I’ve been perpetually looking for a job for the past 5 years. I’m ever so tired. I don’t have high expectations, I just want to make decent money to support The Sis while she finishes school, and I’d kind of like to look forward to it. That should not be asking too much.
I would love to hear from you, my friends. How do you survive the daily grind in order to maintain your creative life? How do you maintain your sanity?
Tips, tricks, and inspiration welcome!
Have a great weekend!
*So, this post isn’t that negative, right?