So I’ve been dragging my feet. I need to finish this retrospective and get to other things, and at the same time, I’m growing tired of looking back on my life and seeing where it has and hasn’t gone. Yeah, it’s been a bit fun. It’s also been eye-opening.

I think I’m also over it.

I’ve been saying a lot of the same things for many years now. I’m gonna do better. I’m gonna make big changes. This is the year. Blah blah blah. I suppose it’s not a bad thing that I’ve been able to maintain this wide-eyed sense of possibility and optimism all these years, but looking back, it really is time to do better. Take chances. Do what I keep suggesting/recommending/encouraging. Actually BE a writer.

I mean I am. I am a writer. I just want it to be my full time job. (Another thing I’ve said a lot these last number of years.)

What I consider one of my better posts, from a year ago, was about this very thing. It was the “lie” I kept telling myself. I am a writer, despite working in dead end jobs, because in actuality, I’m in the dead end job to be able to be a writer. (Even when I’m not writing ((insert eye roll)).) Vicious cycle.

So, one year ago.

All right. Let’s do this.

I was blogging more, back up to 56 posts and my viewers were over 5,500. Better. And they were good ones, not just writing prompt images and quotes without context. There were details and links. Yup. Gonna give myself a little pat on the back.

I had completed the final rewrite on my troublesome child of a screenplay, Fate(s). I had rewritten my pilot, The Demeter, completed the first draft on my new script, Projection, while also finishing the newest chapter in my (now on-going) Dragon Age fanfiction.

Looking back, that makes me a bit proud.

I can’t say I’m proud of this past year, but that’s another story. I mean, we moved. Again. Across multiple states. That takes a lot out of a person.

I met with a screenwriting coach who assured me it was time to move back to California, and that was truly one of the highlights of the past few years. It was encouraging to hear that I was ready to take on the challenge of becoming a professional screenwriter. What is the challenge you may ask? Making friends in the industry aka network. ((sigh))

And now here we are, ready to reflect on the past few months in to the 10th anniversary. What an experience this has been.

In the post about the big “Lie” I ended it by saying: Why would you want to keep reading about my journey if I don’t have one? I want to thank all of you who have stuck by me all these years while I meandered my way. I feel like I’m finally getting it together, and do, in fact, have some news to share on this front.

Thank you. Thank you. Thank you for all your kind words and support. Having you in my corner has helped me to keep coming back and allowed me to celebrate this achievement, I’ve honed my voice, and become the person/writer I am today because of it.

xx, Rach