A Trip Down Memory Lane

HoneysuckleThe other day while walking my furkids, I had this memory from my childhood.  As my blog is called “A Writer’s Discrepant Memoir” due to my horrible memory, I thought I would share it before I lost it again.

There’s a house on our street that looks like it belongs in a Grimm’s fairytale.  Among all the greenery and flowers, it has bushes that started flowering honeysuckles. I looked at them and was transported back to the days of my childhood, when I used to pluck honeysuckles from a neighbor’s house, hoping to never get caught, and would drop the tiny nectar from their stamens* onto my tongue.  As I looked at them now, I still didn’t know if they were poisonous or not, but as a child I did not care.  I looked it up, they’re not.  But I remember looking forward to their blooming every year, trying not to pluck too many in a given day as to not leave enough for the rest of the season, or for the other neighborhood kids that had introduced me to the nectar in the first place.

It was an odd memory.  Even when I still lived in Vegas or when I go back for visits, I never go down that old street, but the more I thought of it, the more memories came.  I used to play Madison the mermaid from the movie Splash in a neighbor’s pool.  I had very, very long hair.  Remember Crystal Gayle?  Google her.  I wasn’t too far from that.  I had my bike stolen there.  I got bitten by a St. Bernard, who I remember stalked me until I had nowhere else to go and he bit my butt.  He was enormous, and must have outweighed me by 150 lbs. easy.  I used to build forts in the desert just around the corner from our neighborhood.  I remember one of our neighbors was friends with my parents, who at a party put his hand in the blender when it got stuck, and yep, it became unstuck with his hand still in it.  I’ve had a paranoia of blenders and garbage disposals ever since.  Anytime I see that in a tv show or movie, I cringe and get a little sick inside.  I got chicken pox in that house.  I used to play school by myself in our den.  I threw up brussel sprouts that I had eaten at a friend’s house, even after I begged not to eat them, because I did not like the smell.  I still can barely eat them.  I used the word “bastard” for the first time in reference to my one year old brother.  He was not, and I don’t think I even knew what the word meant, but it was years later before I dared to speak that word aloud again.  I broke a glow stick on the carpet in my bedroom.  I remember my parent’s bathroom toilet had leaked and mushrooms grew in the carpet.  So weird, right?!

It’s funny the things that stir memories.  A little flower took me down memory lane.  Well, how’s that for a throwback?

Happy Thursday everyone!

Writing Prompt #28

So I may have made a mistake in posting that last writing prompt image. I didn’t receive any links, I’m guessing, because we were all daydreaming about being there. 😉

So this week, let’s get back to work!  This image stirs an idea almost immediately, so I will take the challenge…who’s going to join me?

Nantes, France?

Happy Writing!

What I Learned Last Night At My Writer’s Group

UnhappyIconGracious.  Last night, for the first time, I read some of my work to the group; a few pages of the script I’m thinking of adapting into a tv series.  I’ve been attending this particular writer’s group since January, and some of the members have become friends, so I was completely taken by surprise at the level of anxiety that overtook me when I started to read.  I haven’t been that nervous since the first time I had my work read aloud in college, many moons ago, which I did eventually get over.  Obviously, it’s been in hiding.  The quivering voice that made me more and more self conscious as I continued to read, the spastic hand that made it difficult to scroll, reiterated to me why writers drink.  Our group leader brings wine for everyone each week, but last night I did not partake…I really should have.  I got positive feedback, so that felt good, but I felt stupid that at this point in my life, I couldn’t control the nervousness.  I was surprised they were even able to pay attention to the words beyond the trembling.

This unsettled me.  If I had this level of anxiety among people I knew, how would I be able to pitch and sell my stories to strangers?

I used to wait tables and bartend.  Talking to strangers comes easily, but talking about myself and my work on a bigger scale is clearly a hurdle I will have to overcome.  I was thinking back to my first days as a server.  I was nervous, but nothing like what I experienced last night.  I became a pretty good server, often asked to wait on special guests at the restaurants I worked in…I would have to remember those principles I once implemented as a server; being friendly, professional, confident.

I would also have to practice.  As I had been able to get over the anxiety in school through repeated exposure, I would have to do the same thing at the writer’s group.  I mean, I am to blame for not getting myself and my work out there more.  I’ve been attending the group for 6 months and I just shared my work?!  Geez.  So I came to the conclusion that I would have to read, and read, and read some more.  I would have to get comfortable being vulnerable again.  I’m not sure if it was the judgement I feared or what exactly, but I was reminded of a particular quote when I got home –

Your work is not you.

If anyone has any advice to offer on the subject, please share!

On a side note, I wrote about 700 words of some Dragon Age fan fiction…

I’m sending out positive vibes today!  Best wishes!

 

My Dragon Age Obsession

DA3CUsword&ringsI am not the first to talk about this, and actually, it may appear I’m late to the party, but I’ve been focused on being helpful, and I’ve been so serious lately, that I’ve forgotten to explore some of the other things that intrigue me.  Case in point, the upcoming release of the new game in the Dragon Age series, Inquisition.  Due October 7, 2014.

I am so excited!  For those of you who don’t know this about me yet, I am obsessed with Dragon Age.  Thank you, David Gaider, creator of this fantastic world!  The original game, Origins, was the most fun I’ve had playing a game in a while, and I unabashedly admit to playing it through three times (as each different class, and every time I romanced the same character because I cannot be mean to him or refuse him, I’ve tried, but I always feel badly about it, to which my sister openly mocks me).

For those of you unfamiliar with the game, here are a few reasons why I love it –

  • It takes place in a magical medieval land
  • There are wonderful backstories and character development, and it takes time and effort to build relationships
  • There is wonderful dialogue, comedic side comments during gameplay, and multiple options for romance
  • The game encompasses issues regarding race, religion, and politics
  • You become part of a group known as the Grey Wardens, a legendary order of warriors/guardians, and due to actions within the game are one of two left in the land, and the only hope of defeating the impending threat of a demonic-type horde
  • There are multiple threats and obstacles to overcome
  • The events in this game can be uploaded to DA2 which then shapes some of the events in that world, and then those will affect the third.
  • And for a writer, all of the intricacies are a great lesson in story, character development, and world building

And this is what this obsession has done to me  – For Christmas, my sister bought me the wonderful and comprehensive compendium.  I have been inspired to write fan fiction.  I have played with the idea of getting a DA inspired tattoo (I don’t have any).  I have bought music from the soundtracks.  I have read books based on the game.  I have looked for jobs at Bioware.  There was a contest to have your voice included in the new game, and I was preparing for it, then went out of town and missed the deadline.  There was some anger for a few days.  I’m still angry.  I have looked and will eventually buy some memorabilia, i.e. a sword, tee-shirt, what-have-you, when I’m not broke.  I want to buy a PC (I use Apple) just so I can create mods (extra scenes with new dialogue, special armor, etc. that can then be inserted into the game) for the PC version of the game, which then requires I re-buy the game for PC.  I have an entire folder on my computer dedicated to DA artwork.

I can’t draw, and I am amazed by the talent on DeviantArt and their interpretations and styles.  The first two images are Alistair, the Grey Warden and travel companion my character romanced every time (and a female Warden).  The second two are Fenris from DA 2, who is a broody elf (with reason) whom my character also romanced.  I love these!  And am thankful to all the artists.

RomanticAlistair&Elf(incamp)Alistair&Lady(Disneyesque) FenrisDAII-Fenris

So here’s a little forewarning as to why I might be MIA come October. 🙂 And thank you for letting me get that off my chest.

Have a great week!

DeviantArtists: Smilika (images 1 & 4), rooster82 (#2), and  RinaCane (#3)

What I Learned At My Last Networking Event

TVblueLast week I attended a networking event with a manager/producer guest speaker who said outright that screenwriters should focus on television.  The television market is where it’s at, which is obvious with all the new original programming options at Netflix, Hulu, and Amazon, among others.  Movie attendance is down, so the studios are mainly looking for projects with a built in audience.  Hence all the superhero movies, remakes, and those based on novels.

I wept a little inside.  My screenplay, the one I’ve been struggling to rewrite, the one I wanted to use as my calling card, I could see was about to fall into the realm of obsolete.  The advice given was to create two original pilots.  Gracious.  The one area I’ve been struggling in, and now I needed to create two different shows?!  I barely had a viable concept for one.  And what was worse, I had to write them.  I couldn’t just have a fleshed out idea that I could pitch.  There’s that pang in my chest again, even knowing what I do now, writing this out causes a twinge of anxiety, again.  I left the event a little deflated but thankful for some honest advice from someone active in the film community.  As writers, isolated, no matter how much we read or discover about the business, until we’re on the inside, we don’t know what’s really going on.

When I got home, I started looking through my half-baked ideas, and the gravity of the situation started to sink in.  I have been working on my portfolio, trying to get all my ducks in a row, and I thought I only needed ONE tv pilot or web series idea, not a whole script.  I started to bounce around some ideas, and thought I had come up with a couple of fairly solid ones, until my sister enlightened me.  My fifth screenplay, Projection, influenced by the likes of La Femme Nikita, Buffy the Vampire Slayer, and Alias, could definitely work as a tv show.  And the bonus, it would only need a little reworking as I had already written about 50 pgs.  I know the characters, I know where I want the story to go (at least for a season or two), and who wouldn’t like to watch a female spy with special powers kick ass?!

One down.

So there you go, fellow screenwriters.  A little advice from the field.  I started following a few writers, a screenwriting career coach, and the editor of Script Magazine on Twitter, so I’ll hopefully have some more solid advice to share in the near future.

Happy Sunday!