I can’t believe it’s been a year since I wrote my post about being 40.  Gasp.

*Today I’m not quite sure what I’d like to talk about.  I’m not really in reflection mode.  I wasn’t dreading this birthday, but I also haven’t made any plans.  I’ve never really been one to celebrate.  I had a nice birthday last year, but it was a big one, so it was sort of necessary to commemorate the event, but not this year.

I was thinking about reminiscing about where I am currently and where I’d like to be by next year, but I think I talk about that kind of stuff enough regularly.  I was thinking that maybe I would talk about my favorite things at the moment, as those things tend to change, but most of you already know about some of my fixations (sure, let’s go with that), many of which will never change – see above image.

Honestly, at the moment, I don’t feel like doing much of anything.

What to do?  What to do?  Hmm…how about a little flash fiction that encapsulates the moment…

She sat on the floor cross-legged tapping her fingers to a beat that only she could hear.  Her mind wandered to and fro, mainly between fantasy worlds she desired to be a part of.  That’s how she preferred to spend her time.  The rational part of her brain spoke loudly about all the things that required her attention while the frivolous side reminded her that this was the one day she didn’t have to follow convention.  Perhaps it was all those activities she had taken part of in her youth that had caused her to become reclusive.  There was no willing herself today.  She remained inactive, despite the rising volume of her inner responsibility.

She thought of the time wasted, the gift that she had allowed to go unopened, and hoped she would be lucky enough to do better tomorrow.

*I started this post earlier in the day, but the nothing I indulged in interrupted the flow.

Anyway, Happy Birthday to me. 🙂  Thank you all for being a part of my journey and here’s to a new year that will hopefully be better than the last!