Quote Monday on a Tuesday

Although yesterday passed before I had an opportunity to post, it’s still early enough in the week to share some inspiration. ¬†In fact, today is my Saturday, so if you work odd shifts like I do, then it really doesn’t matter what day you choose to celebrate #MotivationMonday. ūüėČ

BeliefInSanta

We are our biggest critics, so it’s good to be reminded that we can also choose to be our biggest supporters. ¬†No matter what you’re passionate about, if you’re chasing your dream, then believe in yourself that you can and will make it happen. ¬†In the end, should we succeed or fail, it is up to us.

There’s another quote I’ve shared before that I feel is a good bookend for the above, “What would you do if you knew you could not fail.” ¬†Believe in yourself and find out!

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Oh, February

Hiddles BdayEven though February is a slightly shorter month, it really did seem to fly by, and it had its moments.  From wanting to quit my job to celebrating my birthday, playing in the snow and buying a new computer, February was a rollercoaster of highs and lows.

Let’s start at the beginning.

I was officially written up at work for a few small things that could have easily been solved with a conversation. ¬†At my current employment, they only start paperwork when they want a paper trail on people they’re getting ready to fire. ¬†I took the hit hard because their accusations implied they thought I was capable of lying and stealing, among a couple of other not so flattering personality traits. ¬†And the source of it all, the one person I trusted. ¬†The person I share a very small office with.

Needless to say, it’s been a difficult few weeks in the aftermath, but it¬†was also an enlightening moment. ¬†Previously I wrote about having taken stock of my life near the end of last year and realized I had become too invested in a job that I didn’t truly care about. ¬†I wasn’t nearly focused enough on my writing and the career I actually want, so having it reiterated to me so effectively was enough of a boost to shift my attitude and focus.

The following week was my birthday. ¬†Dinner with friends and a numerical reminder that I’m not where I wanted to be by this particular moment in time.

SnowDayThen it snowed. ¬†Like a lot. ¬†So much so that the city issued a snow day, well, technically, a black ice warning. ¬†Now, for those of you who live in places where you have actual winters, you may mock us here in the desert, but the truth is, we don’t see snow very often and we are not at all equipped to deal with it. ¬†It was awesome though.

It was during this confinement that I finally decided to bite the bullet and buy a new computer, something I had been deliberating for months. ¬†With the desire to move my writing career forward fueled by the past weeks’ infuriating nonsense, paying a pretty big penny for a new piece of equipment that’s meant to help me suddenly became the easiest decision.

Keeping up the momentum I entered two more screenwriting contests and started the whole “get my professional portfolio in order before the big screenwriting conference”. ¬†Yes, I am going to attend my first conference this fall during the Austin Film Festival.

I’ve found that when we get comfortable, things slide. ¬†I know I’ve had this conversation with myself a number of times in the past, getting my sh*t in order, but then my job gets in the way. ¬†In some way or another. ¬†It’s usually my major source of ire, and whether I ¬†have a job that sucks and spend too much time looking for another, or invest too much and lose focus on what really matters, I get comfortable.

The now tenuous work situation has me looking at things differently. ¬†Maybe my increased maturity ūüėČ is also helping to streamline my focus. ¬†I don’t want to regret not taking this chance. ¬†I don’t want to only ever say I’m a writer without anything to show for it. ¬†And while I’ve said this a time or two before, something’s different now.

Sometimes we have to let things goAfter shedding a number of tears because the higher ups insulted my character, I said¬†some words aloud on the drive home that were meant to give me perspective, and they did just that. ¬†And that’s when I felt it. ¬†The shift. ¬†I literally felt a detachment occur.

As clich√©d as it’s going to sound, life continues to put us into situations that we may not understand at the time, but are meant to help propel us in the right direction when we finally realize the pattern. ¬†This is my moment of discovery. ¬†It’s time to take advantage of it.

Quote Monday

Today’s quote is continuing in the theme of goal setting from my last post.

sacrifice

When I thought on this for just a few seconds, I didn’t care for the feeling, meaning I had already been sacrificing what it is I really want for myself. ¬†I need to hang this on my wall.

What are you willing to give up to achieve your goals?

2019 Goals

set and reach goal conceptAt the beginning of every year we each decide what we’d like to accomplish, what we want to change. ¬†The dreaded New Year’s Resolution – gyms are overcrowded for a month, a flurry of spending happens while we’re excited for a new hobby, mentally we prepare for the first of the year as if it were a magic reset button, but usually it’s all in vain. ¬†We say things like, “This year, it will all be different.” ¬†“Kiss last year goodbye and say hello to the new one and all the newness that comes with it.” ¬†We set goals, we make resolutions, only to lose momentum a fraction of the way through the year.

Some years are better than others, but it’s because of this I’ve never been one to make resolutions. ¬†The looming (potential) failure. ¬†And I don’t like the feeling. ¬†The reflection at the end of the year at how little I accomplished. ¬†It’s not that we’re lazy, I think it’s just that we lose passion or focus and the reason why we wanted whatever “it” was to begin with amidst the chaos that makes up our daily lives. ¬†An elusive goal with a slow payoff will usually take a back burner to the things that require immediate attention.

Maybe it has something to do with that mid-life crisis I talked about previously, but I’ve¬†started to make some changes by redirecting my focus. ¬†Side note, I did cut my hair off, and it’s kind of fun and different. ¬†I’m not sure how long it’ll last just due to the sheer amount of work it requires but at least I was finally brave enough to try. ¬†Last year I let a lot of things slide. ¬†I let my focus shift to unimportant things, things that didn’t require the value I placed on them, and the year passed with little to show for it…again.

Price

It’s probably a good thing I didn’t make any resolutions. ūüėČ

I like my day job (most days), but I realized I’m giving it too much attention. ¬†I allowed it to gain too much space in my life, and for something I don’t want to do long term, I needed to shift my focus. ¬†Coming home feeling tired, both physically and mentally, causes me to waste the number of hours I have left in my day to accomplish more. ¬†Reading, writing, watching a movie – there have been too many days when none of those have happened.¬†

EveryNewDaySo, nearing the end of 2018 I started to reevaluate my situation, and like serendipity my general manager gave me a book, “The Coffee Break Screenwriter” by Pilar Alessandra and a tee-shirt that says screenwriter for Christmas. ¬†

I think it was the the push I needed, and I have thanked him again since the holidays because I’m over half way through the book and I’ve already had some ideas about one of my scripts that needs a rewrite, I submitted my pilot to a competition, and I’m planning on attending my first ever screenwriter’s summit. ¬†I’ve watched at least one¬†new movie a week, I’m reading more, and I’ve decided to do the thing I fear – write down my goals. ¬†It’s my hope that visualizing what I’d like to accomplish, in addition to having some sort of accountability, may help me actually¬†reach them.

Discipline

I’m one for lists, so by creating a path to accomplish¬†said¬†goals, I may find it easier to navigate throughout the year when I start to wane or lose focus. ¬†In the past I wrote about finding external deadlines to help in goal setting. ¬†This was not my genius idea but one I had come across from a number of sources. ¬†It’s one thing to say I’d like to rewrite my script by such and such a date, but having a competition to submit to with a hard deadline will definitely add the pressure, so I’m finding those as well. ¬†

It’s about using my time wisely. ¬†More wisely. ¬†Finding the balance between the day job and the dream job, family, other interests, and the mundane will take some effort. ¬†So here’s to a new year and the newness that comes with it. ūüėČ ¬†

How do you plan to achieve your goals this year? ¬†Want to help each other be accountable? ¬†Share your goal and let’s have regular check-ins to make it happen!

Quote of the Week for a New Year

Happy 2018, my friends!

It seems that I’ve had to “get back on track” a lot lately. ¬†So, in (yet another) effort to do this, I’m going to start of this new year off right with one of my favorite quotes in the hopes that it will inspire.DoSomethingTodayEach step in the right direction, no matter how big or small, will draw us closer to where we want to be.

Wishing you a wonderful and productive New Year!  xx, Rach

 

Quote Monday

So I happened upon my insights page and compared what I’ve done this year (so far) to the three years prior and the results are dismal. The first year I really took to blogging, I posted 164. ¬†The next year, which saw a great increase of interaction with the outside world, I posted only 112. ¬†Then last year, I posted 118. ¬†Can you imagine with my lulls of inactivity where I might be sitting this year?

21.

Yep.  21 posts (now 22) in seven months.  ((sigh))  Wow.

If those are the results of my blogging, I don’t even want to know what that might mean for my writing.

I set goals for myself at the beginning of the year (last year had proven productive, for the most part), and I wanted to keep that enthusiasm going. ¬†I’m now reevaluating those goals as I’m certain I’m going to fall short at the rate I’m crawling.

How did this happen?!

I may need to reevaluate a few other things as well.  I saw this quote and decided it may be the best way to get motivated again.

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What are your motivational/goal achieving tricks?

Quote of the Week

I apologize that I haven’t really had anything to say or share. ¬†I’m still in escape-limbo mode.

Actually, I’m trying to figure out what to do with myself. ¬†As many of you know, The Sis and I move, a lot. ¬†I feel perpetually antsy. ¬†I long to find a place to settle down, somewhere¬†that feels like home, and so in the interim, I’m finding it hard to make a whole lot of progress in any direction.

There are things I want to do, but if we’re not going to be here much longer, I’m not sure how much to commit. ¬†I mean, why put in energy to something you might not finish? ¬†Right?

Huh.  The things that happen when you become an adult.

And a lot of this comes down to my financial situation. ¬†When you can barely make ends meet, it leaves a lot of feelings of resentment that you’ve somehow allowed yourself to get in this situation in the first place. ¬†It’s a vicious cycle.

So, while I mull over my current predicament, I need to find a boost to my mental well-being.Pic Jointer (11).png

I don’t like to vent here, but if you have any words of encouragement or wisdom, please send them my way!

Hoping you all have a wonderful week!

A Look Back on September

cherWhat is that saying about best laid plans?

Oh, yes.  They often go awry.  And so went the month of September.

A seemingly simple change to my work schedule for the entire month put a huge crimp in my plans. ¬†I wrote very little, and the longing I feel to be creative and get lost in my imaginary worlds is palpable, like an ache in the center of my being. ¬†This is an oddly nice reminder of the fact that I truly have found my calling. ¬†That being said, I didn’t come remotely close to finishing my planned¬†rewrite, I ignored my blog almost completely (Sorry, everyone!), and even the fanfic got the cold shoulder and I’m right in the middle of the juiciest bit.

Not to mention a slew of other things that got pushed to the wayside.  A whole month passed by and I have so very little to show for it.  Even the change in the work schedule offered little result.

And finally, amidst the monotony, I received word that my pilot was not advancing in¬†the first contest I submitted it to. ¬†I swear, if that amateur hour mistake cost me moving forward…

((Sigh))

Sometimes I can’t help feeling as if I’m swimming against the current. ¬†There’s a whole lot of energy being expelled with little in the way of development, and I’m kind of at a loss of what decision I can make in order to achieve a more promising outcome. ¬†I wonder from time to time how many hours I’ve wasted looking for another job I don’t really want instead of investing that time in the work I actually want to do. ¬†I take that back.¬† I really don’t want to know that number.

It’s that kind of thought that compels me to write wherever and whenever I can. ¬†Every little step helps, right? ¬†Tuesday night, instead of being¬†compelled to do “busy work” after the one table I had (yes, you read that correctly – one), I wrote. ¬†I actually sat down at this tucked away little table and wrote. ¬†It was fan fiction, because that is the only thing I seem to be able to concentrate on at work, but I wrote…and I wrote a lot of it.

It felt good. ¬†I’ve missed it. ¬†And it was the nudge and spark of creativity I needed.

Can you believe there are only three months left to the year? ¬†Those goals I set for myself are drawing ever closer, and if I want to keep the promises I’ve made to myself, I have to get crackin’. ¬†The comforting thing about goal setting is that they can be adjusted to fit your needs/time table. ¬†There were a couple of deadlines I was hoping to make, but my overall goal of having my portfolio ready for the new year is still attainable. ¬†((Crosses fingers))

Okay. ¬†Now that I’ve reflected on the nonsense that was¬†September, it’s time to look forward to October and what the rest of the year has in store. ¬†With the holidays fast approaching and the time sucking that inevitably happens, we’ll have to be even more diligent with the time we have.

Even this big setback had a silver lining – I know I won’t be satisfied with doing anything else.

I’m open to suggestions for how I may best move forward and would love to hear what your goals are for the rest of the year.

Wishing you all the best in your creative endeavors!

Goal Review

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It’s June 21st. ¬†Can you believe it?!

We’re about midway through another year, and¬†it’s probably¬†time to reexamine our¬†goals and see what needs tweaking.

For the new year I listed four things I wanted to accomplish, let’s see where I’m at…

  • I‚Äôd like¬†to get my screenwriting portfolio in order‚Ķfinally. ¬†This, as always, will be a work in progress, but I’ve set myself up for the next 6 months with calendars¬†on my wall for visual goal keeping. ¬†This, unfortunately, has been tweaked a few times already, but, I am happy to report that I’ve completed the pilot and written tons of new fan fiction* (the first three chapters are up now, if you’ve been following along, here). ¬†I’ve made notes for the rewrites, and hopefully by the end of the year,¬†it’ll all come together.
  • I‚Äôd like to learn to sew in order to make my first cosplay outfit. ¬†I looked into classes, but haven’t made the effort…yet. ¬†I still have 6 months to accomplish this. ūüėČ
  • I‚Äôd like to travel somewhere new.¬†¬†I still, yes, still haven’t found a new job. ¬†It’s getting kind of ridiculous at this point, so vacation having will have to wait.
  • I‚Äôd like to read more.¬†¬†As I shamefully admitted previously, I didn’t read a single book last year. ¬†How did that happen? ¬†No idea. ¬†I accepted a challenge through Goodreads to read at least 12 books this year (a modest goal) and I’m happy to say I’m nearly done with #9. ¬†I’m ahead of schedule!

Besides finding a new job, I¬†wanted to lose 10 lbs. I don’t have a scale, but I fit in my clothes again, so mission accomplished! ¬†I’ve been working out regularly for the past 6 months, something I haven’t done since my 20s, so there’s that.

All creatives learn that accomplishing our goals does not come easy, nor quickly. ¬†We have to put in a lot of time and effort to reap any reward, but if we keep persevering, we’ll get there!

Goals are meant to be changeable and attainable, so if you accomplish even a small goal, celebrate it and keep up that momentum! ¬†If you need to make alterations, make adjustments that best fit your schedule, but keep going. ¬†Achievements need to be recognized to keep us sane and motivated, so if you want to do a little dance or need some words of encouragement, let me know in the comments and I’ll dance with you!

Wishing you all the very best in your endeavors!  Keep your chin up!

*You may be wondering how the fanfic works into my portfolio as a screenwriter, but for those of you who have been following me for a while now know, I want a job at¬†Bioware! ūüėČ