Quote Monday

So I happened upon my insights page and compared what I’ve done this year (so far) to the three years prior and the results are dismal. The first year I really took to blogging, I posted 164.  The next year, which saw a great increase of interaction with the outside world, I posted only 112.  Then last year, I posted 118.  Can you imagine with my lulls of inactivity where I might be sitting this year?

21.

Yep.  21 posts (now 22) in seven months.  ((sigh))  Wow.

If those are the results of my blogging, I don’t even want to know what that might mean for my writing.

I set goals for myself at the beginning of the year (last year had proven productive, for the most part), and I wanted to keep that enthusiasm going.  I’m now reevaluating those goals as I’m certain I’m going to fall short at the rate I’m crawling.

How did this happen?!

I may need to reevaluate a few other things as well.  I saw this quote and decided it may be the best way to get motivated again.

NotAPriority

What are your motivational/goal achieving tricks?

Quote of the Week

I apologize that I haven’t really had anything to say or share.  I’m still in escape-limbo mode.

Actually, I’m trying to figure out what to do with myself.  As many of you know, The Sis and I move, a lot.  I feel perpetually antsy.  I long to find a place to settle down, somewhere that feels like home, and so in the interim, I’m finding it hard to make a whole lot of progress in any direction.

There are things I want to do, but if we’re not going to be here much longer, I’m not sure how much to commit.  I mean, why put in energy to something you might not finish?  Right?

Huh.  The things that happen when you become an adult.

And a lot of this comes down to my financial situation.  When you can barely make ends meet, it leaves a lot of feelings of resentment that you’ve somehow allowed yourself to get in this situation in the first place.  It’s a vicious cycle.

So, while I mull over my current predicament, I need to find a boost to my mental well-being.Pic Jointer (11).png

I don’t like to vent here, but if you have any words of encouragement or wisdom, please send them my way!

Hoping you all have a wonderful week!

A Look Back on September

cherWhat is that saying about best laid plans?

Oh, yes.  They often go awry.  And so went the month of September.

A seemingly simple change to my work schedule for the entire month put a huge crimp in my plans.  I wrote very little, and the longing I feel to be creative and get lost in my imaginary worlds is palpable, like an ache in the center of my being.  This is an oddly nice reminder of the fact that I truly have found my calling.  That being said, I didn’t come remotely close to finishing my planned rewrite, I ignored my blog almost completely (Sorry, everyone!), and even the fanfic got the cold shoulder and I’m right in the middle of the juiciest bit.

Not to mention a slew of other things that got pushed to the wayside.  A whole month passed by and I have so very little to show for it.  Even the change in the work schedule offered little result.

And finally, amidst the monotony, I received word that my pilot was not advancing in the first contest I submitted it to.  I swear, if that amateur hour mistake cost me moving forward…

((Sigh))

Sometimes I can’t help feeling as if I’m swimming against the current.  There’s a whole lot of energy being expelled with little in the way of development, and I’m kind of at a loss of what decision I can make in order to achieve a more promising outcome.  I wonder from time to time how many hours I’ve wasted looking for another job I don’t really want instead of investing that time in the work I actually want to do.  I take that back.  I really don’t want to know that number.

It’s that kind of thought that compels me to write wherever and whenever I can.  Every little step helps, right?  Tuesday night, instead of being compelled to do “busy work” after the one table I had (yes, you read that correctly – one), I wrote.  I actually sat down at this tucked away little table and wrote.  It was fan fiction, because that is the only thing I seem to be able to concentrate on at work, but I wrote…and I wrote a lot of it.

It felt good.  I’ve missed it.  And it was the nudge and spark of creativity I needed.

Can you believe there are only three months left to the year?  Those goals I set for myself are drawing ever closer, and if I want to keep the promises I’ve made to myself, I have to get crackin’.  The comforting thing about goal setting is that they can be adjusted to fit your needs/time table.  There were a couple of deadlines I was hoping to make, but my overall goal of having my portfolio ready for the new year is still attainable.  ((Crosses fingers))

Okay.  Now that I’ve reflected on the nonsense that was September, it’s time to look forward to October and what the rest of the year has in store.  With the holidays fast approaching and the time sucking that inevitably happens, we’ll have to be even more diligent with the time we have.

Even this big setback had a silver lining – I know I won’t be satisfied with doing anything else.

I’m open to suggestions for how I may best move forward and would love to hear what your goals are for the rest of the year.

Wishing you all the best in your creative endeavors!

Goal Review

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It’s June 21st.  Can you believe it?!

We’re about midway through another year, and it’s probably time to reexamine our goals and see what needs tweaking.

For the new year I listed four things I wanted to accomplish, let’s see where I’m at…

  • I’d like to get my screenwriting portfolio in order…finally.  This, as always, will be a work in progress, but I’ve set myself up for the next 6 months with calendars on my wall for visual goal keeping.  This, unfortunately, has been tweaked a few times already, but, I am happy to report that I’ve completed the pilot and written tons of new fan fiction* (the first three chapters are up now, if you’ve been following along, here).  I’ve made notes for the rewrites, and hopefully by the end of the year, it’ll all come together.
  • I’d like to learn to sew in order to make my first cosplay outfit.  I looked into classes, but haven’t made the effort…yet.  I still have 6 months to accomplish this. 😉
  • I’d like to travel somewhere new.  I still, yes, still haven’t found a new job.  It’s getting kind of ridiculous at this point, so vacation having will have to wait.
  • I’d like to read more.  As I shamefully admitted previously, I didn’t read a single book last year.  How did that happen?  No idea.  I accepted a challenge through Goodreads to read at least 12 books this year (a modest goal) and I’m happy to say I’m nearly done with #9.  I’m ahead of schedule!

Besides finding a new job, I wanted to lose 10 lbs. I don’t have a scale, but I fit in my clothes again, so mission accomplished!  I’ve been working out regularly for the past 6 months, something I haven’t done since my 20s, so there’s that.

All creatives learn that accomplishing our goals does not come easy, nor quickly.  We have to put in a lot of time and effort to reap any reward, but if we keep persevering, we’ll get there!

Goals are meant to be changeable and attainable, so if you accomplish even a small goal, celebrate it and keep up that momentum!  If you need to make alterations, make adjustments that best fit your schedule, but keep going.  Achievements need to be recognized to keep us sane and motivated, so if you want to do a little dance or need some words of encouragement, let me know in the comments and I’ll dance with you!

Wishing you all the very best in your endeavors!  Keep your chin up!

*You may be wondering how the fanfic works into my portfolio as a screenwriter, but for those of you who have been following me for a while now know, I want a job at Bioware! 😉