Quote Monday

Potential-FearAs I continue to send my first script out to contests and other opportunities, I’ve felt this nagging little feeling in the recesses of my mind, a little in the depths of my stomach, this odd sense of anxiety.  So many quotes relate to overcoming fear of failure, but this is almost more related to the fear of success.  Has anyone else ever felt this?

We work for months or years on something, love it, want it to go out into the world and do great things, only to fear that it might actually do just that…how weird.

I’m not sure how people will respond to my screenplay.  It’s been a total labor of love, years in the making with a number of variations until it got where it is today.  To think that it might do well, that I may have a chance to do what I really want with my life, to be a working screenwriter is kind of a scary prospect.

But every day someone in the world is getting to live their dream, so why not me?  Why not You?

And then there’s that flip side.  The other fear if things don’t go as I hope and dream.

What if it’s not good enough?  What if I have to wait another year?  What will I have to show for all of this in the end?  What other options do I have?  Ugh.  The questions.

Maybe it’s a little of the fear of the unknown.  No matter how much we read or hear about it, until we are actually a part of the process, it’s all unknown.

IMoving Forward love writing!  I love seeing my characters come to life and make their own choices and lead the story, and regardless, I will never not write, but to never achieve some modicum of the success I would like…I don’t want to know that regret.

So as I look to the end of the week and the opportunity to send my work out to two more times, I’m smothering the fears and looking to the future.

And this is what I wish for you as well!  Don’t let any fear deter you from achieving your goal, no matter how big!

Good Luck and Best Wishes!!

Quote Monday

Small Steps

I finally submitted my first screenplay, Fate(s), to two screenwriting contests – the Academy’s Nicholl Fellowship and Final Draft’s Big Break.

I’m feeling pretty good about it, and now I can finally move forward on the other stories I’ve written or need to.

What small (or big) step will you take today?

Wishing you all the best!

The Dragon Age Obsession Saga Continues…Part 3

InquistionPosterSo in my absence and “sticking my head in the sand” I have neglected one of my favorite topics, Dragon Age.  For those of you who are new to my rambles, I have a particular fascination with the game series, some might call it an “obsession”, I would almost call it that myself, except I saw this…Obsessed:Dedicated

…and I felt a lot better about it. 🙂

I started this series some time ago, here’s Part I and Part II.  I’ve decided to write Part III on the companions, the merry band of misfits you recruit to join your cause.  I was trying to go in order of how one might proceed through the game, so perhaps this one should be about story, but Dragon Age is currently amidst a March Madness-type narrowing down of favorite characters to create The Dragon Age Ultimate Party, so I felt this was appropriate.  My choices, just FYI, are The Warden from Origins as the leader along with Alistair for the warrior, Varric from DA2 for the rogue, and Dorian from Inquisition for the mage.  #DAUltimateParty

So before I discuss the companions, of which I won’t go into too much, because “Spoilers”.  Any Doctor Who fans out there? 😉  Here are a few of the pros and cons.  In the two previous games certain actions were only available after a character “liked” you enough.  Their approval allowed for romance options and loyalty.  There was gift giving available and specific tokens for individuals, in addition to personal quests that would garner favor.  A bar on their character profile page gave you some indication of your friendship with them, but that disappeared in Inquisition.  At first it really bothered me, because how am I supposed to know if someone likes me enough?!  But this is more true to life.  The “so-and-so approves” or “greatly disapproves” text still pops up, so your only indication of character favor is based on how many times you’ve seen your favorite agree or disagree with your choices.

Also out for the majority of conversations is the positive, negative, or sarcastic indicator that allows you to choose how you would like to respond.  The Sis saves before every. single. conversation. which allows her to see the results of each conversation option and its effects.  She wastes a lot of time doing this, but she also probably has a better understanding overall.  I will, on the other hand, play the first time through just as I want.  As I always play “nice” when a character’s morality is measured, it’s fairly easy for me to distinguish what my character would say.  In all of the games, this wins favor with some while others find my do-gooder behavior tiresome.

In keeping with the idea of conversation, there’s lots of it!  This is something I truly appreciate, and Dragon Age as a series has never failed in this.  You can make quite a bit of conversation while in camp, but one of the best additions was the added supplementary conversations while you’re just walking around.  I became rather partial to who I kept in my party because of this; Dorian, Blackwall, and Sera seemed to be the most talkative and some of the things they talked about…so much fun!

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I’ve started playing the Mass Effect series, also from Bioware, and with the confirmation of a game 4 due out next year, I’m hoping they take a cue from Dragon Age in regards to the romances; conversations, scenes, options.  With Inquisition, Bioware raised the bar.  Romance options are not only based on race, but also sexual orientation.  In the previous games, there were characters that could be romanced specifically by either a male or female lead, some by both, but this time around, there were more lines drawn.  Dorian is gay, as is Sera.  Solas can only be romanced by a female elf.  Commander Cullen, an NPC, is (luckily) a romance option who can only be wooed by a female human or elf.  This approach, in addition to creating a transgendered character found in Iron Bull’s party, has garnered Bioware a great deal of praise and plenty of accolades including a Special Recognition Award from GLAAD.

Here is the lineup: Your advisors are Leliana, Josephine, and Cullen, all NPCs, but of which two are romance options.  I would include Cassandra, a warrior, as well since she’s with you from the very start and initiates the Inquisition.  Along your travels you can recruit the following: Varric – a dwarven rogue, Solas – an elven mage, Blackwall – a human warrior, Iron Bull – a Qunari warrior, Dorian – a human mage, Sera – an elven rogue, Vivienne – a human mage, and Cole…he’s a bit of a complicated rogue.

What you’ll realize is that these characters are 3-dimensional, and this is a great lesson for us storytellers!  There is diversity, and passion, and spirit, and those make for good characters in any medium.

As I’ve rambled, yet again, I’ll wrap it up.  Goodness, I almost need to do another post on this topic alone.  The politics in the game surround a mage/templar conflict.  The companions you recruit all have their own backstory and ideas on how this problem should be resolved.  Because of this conflict, I chose to play my first time through as a female human mage.  Most characters and even NPCs will have their viewpoints and will treat you accordingly until you “win” them over.  There’s fear and skepticism, conflicting religious ideology, political intrigue, and so much more.  As you move forward, making decisions, and influencing the people around you, you will find that this is a fully fleshed out world where your choices have consequences and can shape the world around you.  Again I say, “It is so much fun!”

If you decide to play and want to know your romance options, here’s a guide from IGN.

I hope you all had a wonderful weekend!

Blogging 101: Day Two – Title and Tagline

BlogUSo, technically this task should have been completed yesterday, but I wasn’t sure it needed review or completion.  Although, the more I thought about it, the more I felt I should ask the question(s) of those who already follow me –

What do you think of my blog’s name and tagline?  Do they offer you the proper insight as to what you may find here?  

I would love your feedback and/or suggestions!  And thank you in advance for your help!

Wishing you all the best!

Blogging 101: Day One – Introduction

BlogUHi everyone!

I’ve decided to take part in the WordPress Blogging University course, Blogging 101.  When I started my blog over a year ago, I had a faint idea of a plan, but for those of you who have been following me for some time now, you’ve heard me say a time or two that I really had no idea what I was doing.  I like the idea of continuing my education, and challenging myself to complete as many of the tasks as I can to see if I can grow my blog and kick my writing butt back into shape, so here we are.  This is in addition to finalizing my first screenplay for the submission season that is upon us.  I’m always more productive when I have more on my plate, so maybe this is exactly what I need…of course, it’s 10:30 pm and I’m just getting to it, so let’s see how it goes.

Day One: Introduce yourself

Well, here’s a little more about me, you know, in case you didn’t learn enough on my birthday.  🙂 Oddly, it was one of my more popular posts, so for my new friends, you can read it here.

I’m a screenwriter who chose to start a blog as a way of documenting my progress toward my goal of becoming a professional in the hopes that it would help other writers.  I was also unemployed at the time, and thought it would be a great way to set some perimeters for my daily routine.  I also have a terrible memory, hence the name of my blog, so I figured it would be the best way to maintain a “diary” on a regular basis.

I want to help writers, in part because I don’t remember having a lot of support when I chose this path either, but I have found that this is a great space to share my other passions, interests, and obsessions (Hello, Dragon Age.  I’m looking at you!) as well.  I like to share inspirational quotes, which I try to do on Mondays, interesting images as Writing Prompts on Wednesdays, and then a variety of other writing factoids, my own writings and those from others inspired by the Prompts, and anything else that piques my interest the rest of the week.  I was better about staying on track until The Sis and I moved in September and I got a day job writing.  Not as exciting as I had hoped, but that’s a story for another day.

I don’t tend to get too personal or controversial here because that’s not what this space was designed for.  I didn’t want this to be a platform or a soapbox.  I just wanted to create a welcoming space, something I could be proud of, meet other like-minded, creative individuals, and hopefully encourage at least one person along the way.

I suppose that’s a good start.

Best wishes, my friends!  And Happy Writing!

It’s Quote Monday

GoalsTooSmallI remember when I started telling people I wanted to be a screenwriter the reactions I often received.  I received a lot of scoffs and naysaying and “words of wisdom” that I should choose a more practical career path.  This is something that has always bothered me, and it used to gnaw on me a little, actually it still kind of does when I think on it. Why would you ever demean someone’s dream?  Why would you think to say it can’t be done, especially when you don’t know what the person is capable of?

This is why I try to be so positive and encouraging in this space.  Maybe you’ve received those comments and don’t have a lot of people in your corner telling you, “You can do it!”  I’ll be that person for you! 🙂

YouSayIDreamTooBigThe Sis and I spoke for some time last night as she took a few online tests to try to make a determination of which career path would suit her best.  I love screenwriting and want her to do something she loves too, no matter how long it takes to achieve it.  Unfortunately, my creative path practically ensures that I will work in jobs with little satisfaction (because creatives often want to save their energy for their real job) until I “make it”, while her career paths require many years of schooling, but will then reap huge rewards in the end.  We each must choose what makes us happy and have the courage to follow it.

set and reach goal conceptSet goals and dreams for yourself that people find amusing and then push those people aside as you go on to achieve your goals.  The naysaying should be fuel for your tenacity to show them all!  Wave to them from the top, and hope that they find something to be passionate about, because that’s probably the main reason they have chosen to try to knock you down.

So here’s to your continuing success!  Best of luck!

Fun Fact Friday

I found this interesting infographic in regards to how writing helps the brain and thought I’d share with my fellow creatives.

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I found the graphic here if you feel like scouring their site for other interesting tidbits, like “How to be more productive” which would probably be more easily accomplished by not playing on the internet… 🙂

Happy Friday, friends!

The Act 3 Hurdle

I don’t have a desk chair.  The one I had previously was old, it wasn’t that comfortable, and it was that ugly gray office style kind of chair with thick black plastic arms.  It also had wheels.  My little dogs did not appreciate the terrible noise the wheels made against the wood flooring in our apartment, and neither did I for that matter.  We had been through a lot together over the 10 plus years, we had written so much, but when The Sis and I decided to leave Los Angeles, I realized I didn’t want to move it again.  Honestly, I didn’t want to see it again.  It was time to end the co-dependent relationship, and so I chucked it into the alley behind our building, hopeful someone would find it and give it a new home – a sad fate for my faithful companion.

So now, I have no chair.  I have to drag the chaise I sit on when I watch tv or game over to my desk, which is too low to utilize as a desk chair, and then have to sit on the back pillow and prop myself up like a booster seat.  My dogs like it because they have more room to spread out beside me, but long bouts of writing are not to be found under such conditions.

It’s so awkward.

It sounds like I’m making excuses as to why very little writing has occurred since I determined to write more, and maybe, I am, a little, but the truth is I’m trapped on how to start Act 3.  I reread the first two acts, and was empowered to finish this story properly…which is why I think I’m struggling to find the right place to start.  I don’t have the time to play around with this one anymore – I have deadlines to make, and this story has been worked over so many times it’s pretty unrecognizable since it debuted many, many, many years ago.

EditingI broke out some screenwriting books hoping to gain some insight, and I thought I’d share a few pearls I discovered.  Hopefully, if you’re struggling, you’ll find them useful as well.

1. Have your hero give up just before they reach their goal.  By the third act they have determined that they want “it” and they are going to go after “it”, but exhausted they give up just short of reaching “it”.  The example used was The African Queen and how they tried so hard to get the boat to the open water, to give up about three feet from it.  Then it rains and sets them adrift.

2. Bookends.  Can the last scene be an answer to the first?  The example was a couple who fall in love during war time and are married on the back of a truck, so at the end of the story they have a proper wedding to commemorate their 50th wedding anniversary.

3. Make a list of all the questions asked or ideas raised throughout your script and be sure to answer them.  This is something I have found to be useful so there aren’t any loose ends or plot holes by the end.  It’s a great way to look back over your story as a whole and see that those ideas/themes continued throughout.

4. My last helpful tip is to talk the story over with someone.  I used The Sis as a spring board and found that by voicing my ideas aloud about how I wanted the story to end was more useful than trying to work it all out in my head.  She asked questions that made me reevaluate my ideas and concepts.  Also, when you explain your story to someone, they can immediately tell you if something doesn’t make sense or doesn’t work.

Although I discovered all this useful insight, I’m no closer to the opening scene I need, but I’m thinking that I just need to jump in.  I know the story, I’ll find a good point to start, and let the chips fall where they may.

When I asked two separate people, I received the same response…”it was a dark and stormy night”.  🙂  I’d love to hear back from all of you.  Any advice on a great third act opener?

Happy Writing everyone!

It’s Quote Monday!

SucceedBecauseI'mCrazyEnoughYesterday I posted the links to a number of writing contests coming up, so today I decided we could all use some encouragement to help us achieve those goals.  These are not just for writers, but for anyone who is ready to do great things!WeOnlyRegretTheChancesWeDidn'tTake

What is it you want to accomplish?

I realized that I have to make some adjustments if I want to get my writing on track and be more productive.  The days pass in a blur, and I am no further to accomplishing my goals than I was a few months ago, but that all changed this weekend.  I’m afraid it’s going to take a bit to get back in the full swing of things, and I don’t really have that kind of time…but at least I’ve found that spark again, and my brain turns to that instead of blank nothingness.

So, if you have any secrets you’d like to share about writing, rewriting, finding time, or working through the brain dead patches…please do so! 🙂

She believed she could

I wish you all well, my friends!  Have a great, and productive week!