After the big revelation in my last post, I needed a couple of weeks to recuperate.
Anything I wanted to say in the aftermath was tinged with bitterness.
I couldn’t look at, let alone think about posting another positivity quote. It felt false. Still sort of does.
I needed space. And to get my head on straight.
I’m not sure if I’ve shared this quote before, but it feels like the right choice at the moment. There are a great many things out of our control, but on the flip side, there are so many things we do have control over, and making a choice, coming to a conclusion, one simple action can lead you on the path towards better things.
Taking my own advice, I’ve made some decisions on how I will pursue my goal of becoming a professional screenwriter.
And I’m going to put it out into the universe in an effort to manifest it, and keep myself accountable.
After a polish on the screenplay, I am going to employ the services of a screenwriting coach. I’m going to face the music, face any hard truths, and come out on the other side with a plan.
It’s the one decision I hope will lead me to where I want to be.
What’s a decision you’ve been wanting to make, but haven’t yet, but are ready to?
Here’s to taking chances! I wish you all the best!
Even in times of writing drought, when I was embarrassed by the day job, I told people I was a writer, as if that would somehow make up for, what I considered, my professional shortcomings.
I’m not just a food server, I’m a struggling artist.
I’ll never forget the time I used an elaborate word in front of a guest and them being surprised that I knew such a word and used it properly in context. How insulting.
Saying I’m a writer is almost like a hall pass. It takes time to make it, so floundering is all just a part of the journey. Working towards that goal for a number of years is expected, but I discovered I was lying. Pretending.
Not intentionally, of course. And really only to myself.
It was a way for me to justify taking another dead end job because a “real” job would be all-consuming and take away from what I really wanted to do. It was a way to excuse the life I had found myself in. It was a way for my friends to think me brave for following my dreams after all these years.
I didn’t want it bad enough. I thought it would be easier. The story is not quite right…yet.
Those are simple lies I could tell myself, in hindsight, as to why “it” hasn’t happened yet, but they’re simply not true.
I’ve always wanted to be a writer. It seems I’ve only ever gotten in my own way.
Maybe it’s fear. Maybe it’s laziness.
Showing up for a dream is hard.
I was searching through old posts for today’s subject matter and came across so many instances of me saying I was going to “do things different this year”. I was going to try a new strategy. Set new goals. Make my mark.
It all led to this.
I’ve had this blog for 8 years now. I can count on one hand the number of times I did something different in attempt to propel my career forward. I write about staying positive, reaching for your dreams, slaying your goals and rewarding yourself for achieving them because I wanted to create a space in which I could inspire others, as well as track my progress.
Finding myself regurgitating the same words all these years later…well, let’s just say it was rather eye opening.
If my actions are any indication as to who I am, I am mostly not a writer. But it is who I want to be.
I have wasted years not writing, but I’ve never not said I wasn’t a writer. It’s a big lie I’ve told myself, and one I will not continue to perpetuate.
One of my goals for this year was to discover what aspect of my writing to work on. I thought it might be structure or pacing.
Goodness. What sort of Pandora’s box did I open?!
Apparently, my problem is follow through. I could write all day, every day, but without an actual endgame, there is nothing to propel me forward to making writing all day, every day a reality. A contest deadline isn’t enough. There has to be more. More action. More steps forward. More accountability. More solid, actual progress.
I’ve been on a mission for months now, after that lightbulb moment, and I am proud to report that I’ve finished one story, rewritten two screenplays, and am nearly halfway through writing a new one. But now it’s time to do something about it.
This post (may) hint at my self-loathing for my ability to so long not go after my dream, despite all the quotes to the contrary, but it is the kick in the pants I need to get myself off this merry-go-round. Why would you want to keep reading about my journey if I don’t have one?
I want to throw my fist in the air and say “That all changes today!”, but it physically can’t, there are steps that have to be taken, but I am taking a first step in that direction soon.
A story for another day.
What lies have you told yourself that are keeping you from achieving what you want? Let’s help one another move passed them!
I like to share a bit of inspiration at the beginning of the week, but for me and some of you who work a non-traditional work week, it’s like my Thursday.
I suppose the inspiration helps to get me to my weekend, when I can finally decompress and be productive in the ways that truly matter.
This week’s quote is to help us writers with our confidence. Something I know I struggle with. We’re a strange breed. We spend hours beyond counting in solitude, consumed by self-doubt and without any encouragement for years, and then, at some point, are forced to pull a 180 in order to face the world in an effort to become “professional”.
And people wonder why so many writers are unstable. 😉
We already have to be so many different people for our art – the writer, the editor, the audience, the hero, the villain – and then we have to alter ourselves to make it happen by being confident.
It’s easy to be confident while I write. I take on the persona of my characters, the ones who are willing to do anything to achieve their goals, who go on big adventures, and do great things. I put myself in their shoes and walk into rooms as if I own them.
In the real world, not so much.
It’s hard to be confident when we’re unsure of the outcome. When we’re new. When we’re in a room with people higher on the ladder with much more sway. Or all the sway. But this is not so much about the physicality of the situation, but instead about shifting our mentality.
We have to be secure in what we’ve done and what we’re ready to put out in the world.
Easier said than done, I know.
Like any new skill, it takes time and practice aka patience.
One way I think of obtaining said “confidence” is knowing what we want for ourselves – our measure of success.
What needs to happen for you to count yourself as successful? There will always be disappointments, but what will give you satisfaction?
I’ve long dreamt of winning an Oscar. I mean, c’mon. How cool would that be? But does the possibility of never winning one diminish my drive? Nope. It’s a big reach, and a political gambit, apparently, so I don’t place my measure of success on having that gold statuette on my mantle. But I do have my dress picked out, just in case. Think of this, Stephen Hawking never won a Nobel, so…you know, perspective.
I also believe that as we continue to meet and exceed our goals, that helps to build our confidence as well. So as we look forward to a new year and the associated objectives we wish to accomplish, tackle those small tasks that lead to bigger ones (and then tackle those too) and reward yourself each step of the way.
Be brave, my fellow writers. Be confident. And Happy Writing!
How is a newbie ever to make heads or tails of it all? Sometimes, it’s just too much.
This year I decided to clean up the folder with said saves because some of them are years old now, and while probably still worth reading, at this point, I’ve most likely come across the information elsewhere. Plus, as the article above makes clear, most of what’s out there is bullsh*t.
Screenwriting is an elusive career path. There is no direct, one-way only entry. It’s not like any other creative pursuit, let alone traditional ones. A novelist can write a book and seek out a publisher or self-publish. A painter can create a work of art and put it on display. If a screenwriter wants their work “out there” we’re often told to make a short.
I don’t want to be director. I don’t think. So that means I have to find a director…?
I barely have any writer friends as it is.
So those already in the know share what they’ve learned, what trends they’re “seeing”, and basically utilize their position to further their own careers via writing guest posts, pushing their screenwriting books, classes, or services, and offering “advice” on how to break in.
Yes, I’m using quotes to reiterate how inconsequential so much of that advice truly is, especially when you keep scrolling and read advice to the contrary, as the above article highlights.
Like any advice, good or bad, take it with a grain of salt.
I’m also learning that the more time I spend reading the “should and should-not” posts is just more time taken away from doing what I actually should be doing – writing.
If you’re interested in researching a particular subject, like screenwriting contests, of course, seek those out, from reputable sources, but maybe be more discerning with the content you subscribe to and how much time you spend on subjects that don’t currently relate to your situation.
How’s that for advice? Some I need to follow myself. I’m off to delete!
So now that you’ve read my post about articles and their potential uselessness, thank you very much, by the way, close this window and go write! 😉
Wednesday is Writing Prompt Day! So how is it I haven’t shared one since mid-November…? I know I was personally struggling to find time to dedicate to them, I’m still on my (original stories) writing kick, but considering they’re something I enjoy seeking out, all I can say is, “Eek!”
So let’s start this new year off with a bit of light hearted, or maybe not, writing fun.
As is the norm, I chose the first image that struck me, and I am surprised to say, I had a curious stirring of the imagination towards a story idea. I wrote down the line that came to me, and I’ll revisit it to see what sort of foundation it may form. I don’t know just yet if it’s going to be part of the WP challenge or if it’s a full blown screenplay. Either way, color me intrigued.
What about you? Are you feeling the tickle of inspiration?
I hope you’ll join me in this week’s challenge. If you find yourself inspired by any of the writing prompts I’ve posted, please don’t forget to share! I can’t wait to see what you all create!
Since I first discovered the works of Jane Austen, I have felt a kinship with her, as all Janeites do. I had just returned from a trip abroad, where I had felt that sensation of going home when I saw England for the first time, and the film Sense and Sensibility was coming to theaters. I am not being dramatic when I say it changed my life.
I empathized most with Eleanor, the elder sister, who like me, had to keep the family together after a dramatic event. The Dashwood girls lose their father, leaving them, and their mother, fairly destitute. Our family returned home from the trip to learn my stepfather had been having an affair, and when things fell apart, I took care of my younger siblings.
While I have great love for Pride and Prejudice, it is Sense and Sensibility that still resonates with me most. I, of course, have lost count of how many times I’ve watched it at this point. I used to watch it whenever I felt the least bit sad, or was hormonal, or just needed my Austen fix. Goodness. That could mean it’s upwards of a few hundred viewings. ((insert surprised face emoji))
From that point on, I watched every film based on her work I could get my hands on. I bought her books. I researched the time period, which in turn began to filter into my own writing. I have a screenplay set in her time period in Bath, where she spent a great deal of time.
While writing that screenplay I made an intriguing discovery. The time periods I am most fascinated by are all separated by 200 years, roughly – the Victorian era, the time of Queen Elizabeth I’s reign, Medieval times – and Jane and I were born 200 years apart. I was born in 1975, she in 1775. It was a strange sort of mind bending feeling when I realized this, so the protagonist in that script has a connection to a certain number, which I explore.
When people jokingly ask, “Who is your spirit animal?”, my answer is Jane Austen. I just get her. I mean read some of her quotes:
There is nothing like staying at home for real comfort.
The more I see of the world, the more am I dissatisfied with it.
I do not want people to be agreeable, as it saves me the trouble of liking them.
It’s like she’s reading my mind.
So Happy Birthday, Jane! Your life may have been short, but you made a big impact. Not only have you given me something to strive for, delighting and entertaining readers/viewers for centuries, you also remind us to take advantage of the time given to us, to not settle, and to follow our dreams.
I’ve been considering, for a while now, the idea of renewing my scuba certification in an effort to aid in the oceanic cleanup projects happening. I love the water, always have, and realized that this is something more I can do for the environment. So when I saw this image of an underwater forest, it reaffirmed that idea (because how awesome would swimming through a forest be?), and became the inspiration for this week’s Writing Prompt.
Does this give you fantasy or apocalypse vibes? Maybe a little bit of both? What story idea does it inspire in you?
This isn’t the quote I was originally considering for today, but when I came upon it, it just struck a chord within me. I suppose this could be a Writing Tip as well.
This is one reason I need to return to the writing prompts. They encourage me to try new styles, to write something other than what I’m already familiar with. Reading helps with this too. I’m reading an Anthony Burgess (author of books such as A Clockwork Orange) right now and it’s a total slog and I want to quit, but now it’s a challenge. There has to be a purpose to the randomness, and because I’m trying to read outside my “normal” realm of genre and stories, it’s like I’m being stubborn. It’s going to pull down my reading average and I probably won’t make my annual reading goal, but I will finish it.
Experimenting with our writing is a great way to challenge ourselves as creatives and grow more adept in the craft. I’ve read that screenwriters should have at least one story outside their genre in their portfolio to show the higher ups that they’re capable of more than the brand they’ve developed. It’s about breaking from comfort zones.
This quote was probably more purposefully written about life, and we need that too. It’s how we get ideas – by experiencing more facets of the world around us. I know for most of us, we’re quite content to stay home and live vicariously through our characters, we’re writers, after all, but we need to fill the well in order to draw from it. (I say this happily enjoying a quiet day at home with no desire to leave the comfort of my living room. 🙂 Eh, there’s always tomorrow.)
The weeks leading up to Halloween, I shared a few “darker” themed prompts, and I was drawn that way again for this week’s challenge, I don’t know why, but then I saw this:
I’m about two-thirds finished with the big rewrite on my TV pilot script which is about two sisters abducted by aliens, so when I saw this image, it made me giggle, and that changed my idea for today’s prompt.
Eventually I’ll be able to return to participating in the Writing Prompt Challenges, so in the meantime, I hope you’ll do it for me. 😉